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30 August 2020 @ 11:16 pm

Hello this is Riyaku! Or Rinny if you want to call me by that! This is my personal journal used for ranting and all kinds of other random stuff I want to share. If you want to friend me please do so but I have check up on you before you get accepted :)

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Layout credit to reallystorygirl <3 Thanks girl!!! :)

Current Location: Home ^^
Current Mood: pleasedpleased
Current Music: Stand By Me - Shinee
02 August 2011 @ 09:42 pm
Have I been failing big time?!?!?!

The last time I posted here was almost a year ago, almost 10 months ago...

I apologize I've been working my ass off for the past 6 months as I got a permanent job in a logistic company...

Customer service just makes my head explode... I really hope I could find out a easier job that pays as well as the one I'm doing know...


I just feel like dying in my current job... Having to hear people's complaints for the past 6 months I'm starting to get fed up...

Help here?!?!?! Does any one have a vacancy in their company which pays you approx. 1900€/2500$ a month?! If you do please tell me...

I really want to work well and make money... I even managed to go to Korea with my first salaries and went to Korea for 1,5 weeks and man was it the best time of my life this year. Getting relaxed and just being WAY away from work really did me good... Now I'm waiting to go again during October... KOREA HERE I COME!!!!!!!!

But yeah sorry for the lack of posts :) If someone reads these anyway xD

I still lack posts in lj, but I hope to make a comeback soon :)

- Rinny
Current Location: Home...
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: Good Friends - Super Junior

Sung Shi Kyung feat. IU - It's You

I'm glad you're out from the army... I missed you terribly <3
Updated with a new videos ^^ <3 These are so beautiful songs I can't leave them unshared ^^ This singer is just so perfect to miss <3 My mom loves him too :PPP
Current Mood: touchedtouched
Current Music: Wind, You - Sung Si Kyung
30 May 2010 @ 10:59 pm
"When I meet it, I reenter myself, fold myself again in my own skin. I'm cured of the space sickness of transcendence. It is possible that when we travel deep enough, we always encounter an element of sadness, for full awareness or ourselves always includes the knowledge of our own ephemerality and the passage of time. But it is only in that knowledge - not its denial - that things gain their true dimensions, and we begin to feel the simplicity of being alive. It is only that knowledge that is large enough to cradle a tenderness for everything that is always to be lost - a tenderness for each of our moments, for others and for the world."

Another great quote from Eva Hoffman's autobiography Lost In Translation. This part was just so deep to me that I had to share it. I have a slight clue what this quote is about, but it's mixture of emotions and just different way of expressing something is just utterly amazing. It's about her feelings when she realized about English in her life... From a Polish girl who spoke only Polish to a grown woman in a English society where speaking English was the only option... Having grown in a Finnish language myself I always want to learn new languages to express myself... Because expressing myself in Finnish became too hard... I have to speak it, but I try to avoid writing it... Because I know that when I express myself in my mother language it becomes so hard... I have actually lost my desire to speak Finnish... And since I have so much international friends, speaking Finnish with them is impossible...

I always prefer speaking English in what ever the circumstances... I really want to find a job where Finnish language is no longer required... That's my one and only desire... That's why I want to become an English teacher in Korea... Not in Finland where I know that I have to speak Finnish with my students... And since Finnish students don't want to express themselves in English in front of their English teachers it's sad that they easily lose their touch in the language... When if I teach in Korea I get to speak both English and Korean...

The languages I love to speak and love to teach others and want others to teach me... Now I anxiously wait for my university entrance exam results... Because this is my only desire...

I leave my academic future in hands of God... Because I believe in my heart that this is the path He chose for me ^^
Current Mood: nervousnervous
22 May 2010 @ 11:03 pm
"I'm trying to live as if I were free. At least I can have that dignity.
Free. You're playing a dangerous game. A charade.
Leave me alone. It's you who's playing the charade now. Your kind of knowledge doesn't apply to my condition.
I'll never leave you quite alone...
But I don't have to listen to you any longer. I am as real as you now. I'm the real one..."

Quote from Eva Hoffman's autobiography Lost In Translation. Expressing her feelings about a second self inside her head telling her things she doesn't want to listen and wants to bury that voice away by proving that it doesn't have a place in her mind...

We all have another voice inside our heads whether it's the little devil or just another side of you that wants to be heard and wants things done in it's way... I think this is an awesome quote, because we all try to win against that second voice and prove that we can do things well enough by our original mind that's ours and not some sick alter ego that will lead us to the wrong direction and think badly about ourselves...

We have our dignity. We have our freedom. And we have the thing we believe is the truth...

Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
Current Music: My alter ego >_
21 May 2010 @ 01:51 am
"Sometimes we let affection, go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell our feelings,
Especially towards those we love the best."

Current Mood: touchedtouched
Current Music: Partner For Life - SG Wannabe
21 May 2010 @ 01:42 am
Sometimes life feels so empty...
Without a reason why tears start to fall...
I feel nothing but loneliness in this huge universe...
There's things I hope for...
There's things I want to fulfill...
But death scares me...
It makes me afraid... Afraid of tomorrow...
We should always live day at a time...
But we always insist thinking into the future...
What's in the future?
Happiness? Sadness? Despair? Love? Hope? Or just a black hole...
We lose people to death... We lose people to despair... We lose people with love...
All we're left is just a black hole in our soul... Every loss leaves a hole...
It helps to grow and adjust to the world...
But this world is something that we will never adjust to...
It always keeps changing us...
It changes us without us noticing...
We lose ourselves to the desires of the world... And we never wanted to happen...
We can't stop the world bringing despair and awakening emotions...
Because it's all for us to learn about life and never look back to the past...
Current Mood: moodymoody
Current Music: Tell Me Goodbye - Big Bang
04 May 2010 @ 01:50 pm
Adam Lambert came to Finland last weekend. I went to get his autograph. I waited outside for over an hour. I had fun with my friend, but I was pissed...

Just when I was almost up to get an autograph he left... I saw him waving and leaving... I was upset and my friend was more upset....

I only saw him for 5 seconds before he left... I waited a week for this and even when there was fans left he didn't bother to stay a little longer...

In 30 minutes he could have signed autographs for the rest... Was it too much to ask?

But I love you anyway though I haven't been a fan for long, unlike my friend who adores him and has been a fan since he was in American Idol... I felt sorry for her the most... She was so excited and hoped to see him, but we didn't...

We should have taken action and tried to get ahead in the line... Even if I get a punch in the face I should have done it!!!! I could take on angry fans and I think if I came up with a story they would let me go ahead...

I don't even know if he'll sign autographs in here again and if he does... I'll be there in the morning and wait even if it kills me!!!! :/

I thought about going to the airport the next day, but decided that it would be useless anyway... This is so my luck as always...

I hope he comes back soon... <3
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
Current Music: If I Had You - Adam Lambert
01 May 2010 @ 12:49 am
"Life is not about counting"

There's so many things that you still have to count in your life... How much money I spent today? How many meals I had? How many times I drank water? How many times I went to the bathroom? How many times I do all the stuff I do day after another?

Counting is just useless... You know how much money you spent when you notice you have none.
You know how many meals you had when you feel hungry, because it's a sign that you haven't eaten at all.
You know how much water you drank when you either feel thirsty or go back and forth from the bathroom.
And yeah you know how many times you've gone into the bathroom when you notice it's time to do some "business".
And you know the stuff what you do everyday because doing something out of the ordinary always makes you uneasy...
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: mellowmellow
Current Music: Epik High - Run
25 April 2010 @ 11:50 pm
"You look gorgeous"

"You deserve everything"

"What ever you do in your life, you know later you made the right choice"

"Even if your dreams don't come true when you want them to, make sure they come true later in your life"

"You are a really fine lady"

"You can achieve everything"

"Every inch of you is perfect"

"Don't change yourself"

"You rock!"

"This is the fabulous me! (arrow pointing down)"

I wrote these on my mirror when we moved into our new home with my mom as a word of encouragement when I was in my last year of high school and going through some difficult times... And since I've always had a complex about my outer appearance these really helped me out a lot... Everyone is perfect on the outside and inside because we're God's creations... At least I believe so... So changing ourselves is like changing God's creation and at the same time the changes can disappoint us when we were happy just the way we were... ^^

These really inspire me everyday when I look at the mirror on my wall... Really telling me facts that I should know every second... ^^ And we should always believe in ourselves because when we do we can achieve anything ^^

Peace <3 

Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: It's Alright - G.O.D
08 April 2010 @ 08:55 pm

블링 블링 종현이에게 생일 축하해 <3<3<3<3<3

사랑스러운 동갑 친구에서 이 하루에 정말 정말 축한다!!!


열심히 하고 건강 하시고 멋지게 다시 돌아오세요~~!!! <3<3<3<3<3

사랑해~~ <3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: My thoughts :////
23 February 2010 @ 12:15 am
Greetings from Korea!!! ^^

I've been here a week already and I'm liking it so much. This feels like home ^^ It's so warm compared to my home country that I want to stay here longer :DDD In Finland it's around minus 15 when in here the temperature is plus 10 around everyday :))

First I went to Daegu and stayed there for a week and now I'm staying in Osan, Kyunggi-do with an unnie I know :)) We're having so much fun...

It's so nice here and I get to speak Korean everyday so I'm liking it even more ^^ I get to learn more and more everyday which I'm liking very much ^^

There's only 12 days left in Korea so I better enjoy this time as much as I can ^^ I really expect next week because then I get to go to Seoul finally :DDD My dream for the past 4 years ^^ This week I focus on this event where I'm helping and next week do something fun ^^

I need to sort out some credit card problems first :((((( Which make me really upset because I'm running out of money >.<*

I write again when I have time so for now it's 안녕 from Osan :)))

Current Location: Osan, Kyunggi-do
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic
Current Music: TV
24 January 2010 @ 11:17 pm

준호 오빠 생일 축하해요~~~ <3

우리 동갑이지만 너 진짜 내 재일 좋아는 2PM멤버이에요 ^^

한상 웃으는 오빠에서 생일 축하해~~~ <3

이준호 화이팅!!! 2PM 화이팅!!! <3<3<3<3<3
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: gigglygiggly
Current Music: Heartbeat - 2PM
21 January 2010 @ 11:01 pm
This is seriously a dream or something... I never thought that this would happen during my 4 years of being into the Kpop fandom... Now it's finally becoming reality...

I'm going to Korea!!!!!!!!! For 3 weeks!!!!!! How unbelievable is this?!?!?

All I can say is that I've never been this happy, nervous, sad, excited and worried like I'm now... There's so many thoughts in my mind that my head is spinning even ^o^

But now it's finally happening... My dream come true, the dream that I've waited to come true for 4 years now and it's just unbelievable...

I'm speechless...

Departure is in two weeks!!!!!!!!! OMG!!! *panic*

한국 출발 2월 5일!!!! ^^
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: shockedshocked
Current Music: Cold Hearted Man - TRAX
12 January 2010 @ 12:00 am
Omg I can't believe this... After a long period of time I managed to get my animated mood theme to work!!! xD And it's MBLAQ's Joon mood theme!!! Yay!!! *jumps* He just looks so cute :P

I want to thank thievingbird who provided this mood theme... It looks so gorgeous ^^ I should get some Joon icons too to match with my mood theme :P

Nothing else, just random notice xDDD

Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: Tic Toc - 2PM (feat. Yoon Eun Hye)
14 December 2009 @ 08:59 pm
생일 축하해요 진기 오빠!!! <3

지금 핀란드에서 월요일 있잖아니까,

그래서 생일 인사 보내하겠습니다.

오빠 생일 축하해요~~~!!!

사랑합니다!!! <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Ring Ding Dong Remix - SHINee
10 December 2009 @ 12:14 am
최민호 생일축하해~~~!!!

조금 늦었지만 누나가 기억났어 ^^

생일 축하해~!!!! ^^

내 사랑스러운 동생 민호 <3 사랑해~~~~ <3
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
Current Music: Nuna Is So Pretty - Shinee
28 November 2009 @ 11:40 pm
Now it's over... My favorite drama has ended and closed it's doors... I'm really upset about this... About the drama ending so soon and the fact that the ending wasn't what I expected... Okay if you look at it that Taekyung was finally able to confess his feelings to Minyu, but still it's not what I expected. I thought that the ending would be something else, but it ended this way... Of course I'm happy that Minyu and Taekyung was in the last scene and she received the necklace, but I was waiting for a dramatic ending kiss which didn't happen. Just a hug in the concert... I mean what the hell?!?!? This is Korean drama we're talking about! Usually they all end with passionate kisses and forever love, but Minyu was still leaving to Africa to work as a nun there. *sighs*

I still have to admit that I love the drama to death with all it's flaws... I loved the casting and I think they made an awesome job at the processing of the story ^^ BOF was a little too slow at times which was kinda stupid because they could have just made it 16 to 20 episodes long and leave out all the pointless ranting... I think YB was a really good example of well planned work ^^ The drama was never boring though I didn't like Uee's character one bit and Taekyung's mom was really a bitch sometimes. Sorry for the use of language ^^

I'm not pleased, but I'm still happy... Shinhye's and Geunseok's pair in the drama really became my OTP at the moment and I might actually write a story about them in the future ^^ But yeah I'm just not pleased, but still happy. At least now I can go and watch Coffee Prince again to celebrate actor Gong Yoo's return!!! Yay!!! I loved that drama to death and I'm glad that he's coming back. I hope he makes another drama with Yoon Eun Hye again ^^ They make such a great on screen couple ^^ But yeah I'll rewatch when I get back home ^^

Congrats to 2PM winning Music Bank and Music Core this weekend!!!! ^^ *throws confetti* I'm really glad that they've been frank about missing Jaebum which really melts my heart ^^ Congrats!!! ^^

Anyway I'm going to bed now and hopefully I'll update my journal with something nice in the future ^^

G'night~ <3
Current Location: At daddy's <3
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: When I say Ya! You say Yeah! - Kim Tae Woo & Lyn