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21 May 2010 @ 01:42 am
Tell Myself Goodbye  
Sometimes life feels so empty...
Without a reason why tears start to fall...
I feel nothing but loneliness in this huge universe...
There's things I hope for...
There's things I want to fulfill...
But death scares me...
It makes me afraid... Afraid of tomorrow...
We should always live day at a time...
But we always insist thinking into the future...
What's in the future?
Happiness? Sadness? Despair? Love? Hope? Or just a black hole...
We lose people to death... We lose people to despair... We lose people with love...
All we're left is just a black hole in our soul... Every loss leaves a hole...
It helps to grow and adjust to the world...
But this world is something that we will never adjust to...
It always keeps changing us...
It changes us without us noticing...
We lose ourselves to the desires of the world... And we never wanted to happen...
We can't stop the world bringing despair and awakening emotions...
Because it's all for us to learn about life and never look back to the past...
 
 
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[ HOLLY ]xhxoxlxlxyx on May 27th, 2010 10:32 am (UTC)
There's no need to be afrain of anything, not even of "tomorrow"





And my response to this is...

In joy and in pain, the sun and rain,
YOU're the same, YOU never let go.


~David Crowder Band, Never Let Go

Download links, in case you want to have a listen. MF | MU
And, DON'T EVER BE AFRAID OF TOMORROW because God doesn't turn His back on His promises to His children... And He has promised you and I this....

I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING. I have it all planned out — plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you a future you hope for.

When you call on Me, when you come and pray to Me, I'll listen.
When you come looking for Me, you'll find Me.

Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed.


~GOD, Jeremiah 29:11-14 (The Message version)

This is a promise I  cling onto with my dear life, especially whenever I'm feeling unsure of the future or when my days just seem like one big "black hole". So I thought, I'd share it with you too.

BE BLESSED.
리나(Rina)riyaku on May 27th, 2010 08:54 pm (UTC)
Re: There's no need to be afrain of anything, not even of "tomorrow"
Thanks for sharing those verses... I know what you mean. Yesterday we had a conversation with my aunt when I was visiting her place and I said that I have had a hard time at work... The owner and the shop executive aren't really supporting at times and I get criticism that in my opinion I don't deserve...

So she told me that no matter what they say and even if you feel bad when going to work just pray to God everyday to give you strength and protect your heart from their words that might hurt you... And because this job was a blessing from God. He wanted me to work there, to learn new things and really open some new eyes to the world I should never think negatively because that's Satan planting words into my head and making me feel bad about my life... But everyday that I work there I should dedicate my work to God and show Him that this is what you gave me, this job was given to me by you and I'm going to do my job so well that I'll daze everyone else...

I actually work in a clothes store so holding up a smile and being really active about everything is really important...But sometimes I felt that I couldn't do it... So again my aunt said that tell God that you're doing all the work for Him and ask for strength and he'll grant it to you what you pray for because you're doing it as a praise to Him...

^^ You too be blessed <3
[ HOLLY ]xhxoxlxlxyx on May 27th, 2010 09:03 pm (UTC)
Re: There's no need to be afrain of anything, not even of "tomorrow"
i'll be praying for you too :)

...and if you want me to add you to my prayer list, or you have something you're believing for God to do in your life (anything specific or in general)... just let me know and i'll totally pray for it for you too.

after all, us daughters-of-God gotta stick together right ~.
리나(Rina)riyaku on May 27th, 2010 09:16 pm (UTC)
Re: There's no need to be afrain of anything, not even of "tomorrow"
Yeah we daughters-of-God gotta stick together ^^

I really appreciate this ^^ And of course you can add me to your prayer list. What I want God to do in my life right now is give security in my heart... I worry about the future almost everyday and the fact that I had this vision once where God showed me a family portrait of me, my husband and our child... Gives me slight security what my life is going to be like, but I want to feel safe right now...

The work thing is really stressing me out and I just hope and pray that I'll get through it... I prayed for more work hours and God gave me more work hours but I'm running out of strength too quickly... I'm exhausted after university exams and I've been working almost everyday in this entire week and weekends as well... I haven't had much spare time and if I have some it's only for a little while... I checked my work list and I'm getting less and less hours again, but I really just want strength to push it until I really have some time to myself ^^